In June 2024, HIM further gave me instructions on how to fight against EOE. In HIS plan, first I needed to prepare my will and left some last words to some people I knew. (In retrospect, that must be for EOE to maintain his disguised good reputation.) Then I needed to go for a trip right away to a few countries in Europe and meet with some persons HE specified. The whole trip would take about 2-4 weeks. At the end of the trip, I would live in a hotel in France and someone (now I know it must be someone sent by EOE) would bring me some pills. I was instructed to take the pills and die. HE said my situation was too difficult to fight and itโs better to die/get out.
At the same time, EOE attacked me further with bad products / quality for everything I bought, from salad, apples, vegetables, canned food, coffee, sauce, nuts, noodle, milk, lotion, sun cream, toothpaste, shampoo to toilet papers. ( This is also the reason we have to take down EOE because everyone uses these products daily. ) Especially from Aug 2024, EOE started to openly threaten me to make me sick.
HIM basically destroyed all my confidence to fight because though itโs very difficult, I had never thought I needed to kill myself to get out of it. At that time, I believed HIM is who he said he is but HIS words still shocked me to the core and didnโt resonate with me so as to follow such a plan/guidance. Therefore, I ignored it. HE then came up with other stories and guidance.
Later on, HE brought this plan up many more times, about once in a few weeks to โguideโ me to take such a trip.
March 30, 2025